antisosial pd seorg Marina Savira itu...

= cacat permanen.

g ad yg bs dilakuin spy bs ilang.

klo aq udh kyk gini, y aq kyk gini.

aq antisosial jg g ngruh sm syp2 kn?

g ngrugiin org laen kn?

yg rugi cmn aq kn?

THEN WHY DO YOU CARE?!

when i need someone, i'll tell them.

when i don't, however...

i'll stay silent. simple as that.

aq g mau brubah.

aq mnolak dgn tegas klo ad yg mau ngrubah aq.

i have 10 words that suits my identity..

1. autistic
2. antisocial
3. invisible
4. alone
5. unimportant
6. pessimistic
7. hurt
8. depressed
9. introverted
10. ignorable

perfect.

tunggu tgl maen slanjutnyah..

well, well, f**king well..

gw pikir nagging gw bkl brs..

but guess what?!

I STILL have something to nag about.

ngga, bkn che de rasta, sy save dr jangkauan mrk utk smntara wkt.

it's my own f**king family.

tiap ad kmpl kluarga, hrsny smua ngajak ngbrl smua kn?

but no, not in my case.

wkt mrk popotoan, guess what I did?

yap, MOJOK, DNGRIN LAGU SNDIRIAN.

yg slh gw jg sih, gw g pinter ngmng, so no-one's interested in me.

I'll always be a KID in their eyes, jd apapun yg gw omongin, msk kanan, kluar kiri. g dserap, dianggap tdk pnting.

that's what I'll always be. a f**king KID.

I'm 15 years old if you don't know.

I HATE crowds. apalagi yg g mrhatiin gw.

you now know that I'm a f**king attention whore.

mrk ktawa tnp gw. n tmpkny mrk g ngliat ad yg ilang. gw.

g jrg gw nangis gr2 ini. gw sering plg dr rmh wa amy yg d sblh rmh gw, k kmr, hny utk nangis.

mrk jg kykny g ad yg nyadar gw plg.

see how f**king invisible I truly am?!

gw kykny hrs nulis novel dgn crita kyk gini.. kykny bs jd best seller y. haha. you wish.

emg sih, yg gw omongin g prnah jauh dr musik.

but that is exactly my problem. musik yg gw sk, d kluarga gw g ad yg sk.

klo ad jg, g ad yg sfanatik gw.

yep, I'm the f**king FREAK in this f**king family.

my autism is back, after I thought I'm over it.

oh well, might as well have something to brag about again.

"hey, guess what?! I'm f**king invisible, my family and ex-classmates ignores me, and I have f**king autism! how nice is that?!"

now, that's something you don't hear everyday.

maapkan c syh atas smua pnggunaan kt2 yg inappropriate, I just can't help it.

dgn ini, sy anugerahkan title The Most Pessimistic Person in the Whole Wide World kpd dr sy sndiri. applause, applause. *notice the sarcasm there? if you do, good job.

punten, lg rada stress. ini sdh sy alami brtahun2, tp bru bs dtumpahin skrg.

tunggu tgl main slanjutnyah..

finally, a change!!

org2 meureunan cararape, liat blog sayah, isinya Queen kabeh.

yah, demi deh. demi kebaikan smua orang, dan kebaikan sayah, juga reputasi sayah.

sekarang isinya lirik QUEEN, AVENGED SEVENFOLD, MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, SIMPLE PLAN, PANIC! AT THE DISCO sama GOOD CHARLOTTE.

g hanya lirik, tp jg info2 simple ttg band2 onoh.

tdk lp smua omelan2 g pnting syh jg.

sip? sip?

siip...

tunggu tanggal maen slanjutnyah...

22, berkabung

minggu ini SMA Negeri 22 Bandung sedang berkabung.

hari Jum'at tanggal 29 Agustus 2008, Ibu Dian Utami, guru B. Indonesia SMA Negeri 22 Bandung, juga wali kelas X-3, meninggal karena stroke di Rumah Sakit Al-Islam Bandung, setelah sebelumnya pada hari Selasa pada minggu yang sama mengalami koma.

Dina yang cerita, ibunya sahabat baik Bu Dian, bahkan ibunya ada waktu Ibu Dian meninggal.
banyak guru yang nangis, bahkan Pak Wawan sama Pak Erwin aja nangis.

terus, hari Kamis tanggal 4 Agustus 2008, Nikita, murid kelas X-4, jam 02.00 meninggal setelah sebelumnya mengalami kecelakaan motor.

ceritanya sih, dia sama temennya naek motor di jalan Soekarno-Hatta, pas mau belok ke Alfamart, ada motor laen yang nabrak motor mereka. temennya ngga apa-apa, tapi Nikita memar di mata dan di dadanya, kalo ngga salah. kalo salah harap koreksi lewat komen/protes.

dia dibawa ke RS Al-Islam, tapi sayang, kira-kira jam 02.00, Nikita dipanggil untuk kembali ke Rahmatullah, pada usia yang sangat belia, 14 tahun.

My deepest condolences on these two awful news... smoga mereka diterima di sisi-Nya, amin.

(bahasanya nyampah banget, y?)

tunggu tgl main slanjutnyah...

'che de rasta', kmbali k hidup saya

hmm.

udh lama g ngpost.

saya datang dgn postingan pnuh caci maki *quote courtesy of teh atin.

they're back into my life.. to ruin my life itself.

td ad 'rapat', ngomongin bubar mantan che de rasta. *bersarkastik ria* subhanallah, saya diajakin. ajaib. punya mata juga mereka, bisa nyadar ada sayah.

okeh lah, saya ksitu soalny ad arni. kangen bgt lah, udh ampir 2 bln g ktmu.

saya k 8 dlu, jmput arni. ktmu argya. yh, ini aj yg mnyenangkan, kangen brt sm dy.

d 13, udh ad kmbar, bajaj, ita sm dadang. t lm kmudian, dtglah de2w.

gw jd kambing congek. mreka ngomongin ap yg trjadi d 8, sdangkan ita n dadang *mntan cdr yg sklh d 22* are nowhere to be seen. sial.

g enakny ini, gw jg dcuekin sm arni. damn, that hurt.

pd akhirny, rapat pun jd makin teu puguh.

sakit kpala sayah.

perfect.

rapat g mulai2, mau pulang g ad tmen. mana blm solat.

solatlah gw. dzuhur DAN ashar. bgitu brs dzuhur lgsg adzan.

pulanglah gw.

gw tanya aj k arni, 'ni, gmn bubar teh?'

jwbnny?

'tgl 15 jm 3 ngmpul dl'

jd slama gw g ad mreka ngapain aj? maen poker?! g guna abis.

slalu kyk gini. klo ngumpul trs g ad PJny psti omonganny ngalor-ngidul-ksana-kmari-makin-lama-beuki-teu-puguh tea.

mn tgl 15 gw UTS lg.

perfect. just perfect.

my life had started to get better, but these people always have some kind of way to ruin it.

f**kers.

tunggu tgl main slanjutnyah..